Ana

Two Sides Effect Me Part 1 (Collaboration fic with Lugiase)

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 02:57:57 GMT

Title: Two Sides Effect Me
Chapter: Part 1 "Mind"
Genre: Drama, darkness, romance,
Pairing: JukaxJukaxJuka (MdMJukaxJuka, HGPJukaxJuka)
Rating: None

Summery: Its been years since Juka left Moi dix Mois. Having mixed feelings of whether he made the right choice or not leaves him puzzled. All of the sudden images of the past appear to him when he was a young boy. There is a meaning towards this. This is leaving Juka lost and confuse.

Authors Notes: I'm writing this story with a very close friend of mind, Lugiase. She also loves Juka. But not as much as I do. XD This story is gonna be about Juka's Moi dix Mois days and Juka's Hizaki Grace Project days. The two sides that effect him and will be fighting for Juka's love. :P

Anyway this is a new story that holds my feelings towards Juka in the story. So you might not understand it as much. But I hope you still like it though. ^^

The wind was rushing from outside his window. It was total silence. A doll looking figure was lying on his bed, looking up at the ceiling. He felt as though the angel of death was playing a sad melody at his bed side. Each key note that was playing, making him lose control within him. It made his soul feel hollow too. Like something was missing from him. But was it that was missing from him? Something that use to be there, is no longer with him. He was stuck upon this. It made him go into deep thought. He slowly closes his eyes shut, seeing but nothing but black.

He found himself lost again. Thinking about this for a long time, before his departure from the dark band. Being lost into the truth of music. No body knows the truth but him. Sometimes he can’t figure it out himself. All from the gather data that people spread, it was known that he step down from Moi dix Mois. That info has remain inside his mind for a long time. Making him lose his belief.

It’s still stabbed inside his heart, because he knows he step down. We all know bands do this, but why does it seem it’s a huge deal to him? He can’t get over it. Something was bothering him about this. It was coming back to him. The memories he had with his band mates.

He tries not to think about it sometimes but he can’t help but to regret it. He can’t help to wonder if he maybe he made a mistake in himself of quitting Moi dix Mois. Was it the right thing? If he would of turn back time, it been different if he kept going without saying a word. Without saying a word he was frustusted and kept going on his way into the darkness of music. What would of his appearance been like? It would of never been as it was today. Questioning what his style would of been like if he stayed.

In the far distance of his mind within the sleep of slumber, he could hear a voice lurking in the shadows. A voice that sounded so cold and mysterious. He wanted to get away from it, but it felt he couldn’t stop the voice. The voice of the red headed vocalist, Seth. His voice was clouding the blond doll. He could feel as though it was telling him something. What did the voice of Seth mean?

Maybe envyness was lurking within the blond vocalist. Listening to the music they created with him, playing over and over again in his head. Trying not to think about it, but Seth delivered something greater then he ever did on stage. He doesn’t want to believe that Seth is better for Moi dix Mois but in his part, Seth is. Seth was stronger and more powerful with his voice.

It never crossed his mind about this, but he could feel loneliness coming to him. Feeling as though people are drifting away from him. Knowing that people have moved on. A feeling that has crowed him. While thinking of sorrowful times, he sheds a drop from his vision.

“Dad tell me something. Where do I go from here? What is the answer?” He says with a sadden voice.

Then a spark of flash comes through to him, as visions of the past when he was a young one appeared before his very eyes. It was during a time when the dove was spreading it’s wings towards the day. It was half way down, leaving an orange glow over the horizon. Surrounded by calm spring in the garden, the young doll and his dad have a discussion.

“Juka my boy, someday you will come across where you will have to make a decision for yourself.” Said his dad.

“What decision is that dad?” Asked young Juka.

“I’m sure you will come across where differences will appear before you and you will have to fight for that feeling. Learning to be a man and to step down when things don’t seem worth fighting for. If you come about something that you’re not happy with, then the only way to get rid of that feeling is to change it with your right instance.” His dad replies back.

“But if I come across a time when loneliness effects me?” The young boy asked a more deeper question.

“Loneliness doesn’t come at you. Sometimes you might feel lonely but truly you aren’t lonely, that's what your mind thinks. We get blinded by the events we have, and how we behave as human beings. As long you believe in yourself and move yourself to do things to get rid of that feeling, then you will never be lonely.” His dad says back with a stronger meaning of words.

Then all of the sudan the young child switches the topic and ask something different that doesn’t relate to subject.

“I want to be a musician just like you and mom.” He says haply. His dad looks at him curiously. Juka switched the subject so sudan that has his dad questioning about what he said. He thinks to himself.

When I look at this boy, I see a gentle kind spirit. Yes I may feel a dark solitude towards him, but he seems to be the one that will fight it back. I just know he will fight for what ever might cause him to shut down. The future for him is in his greatest care. He has it all in his mind.

A moment of silence was flowing as the boy looks at his father with curiosity.

“Dad is there something wrong?” He question.

His dad just smiled at him and feels through his hair.

“Juka I know you will be a great musician someday, just like your old man pops.”

“You will teach me papa won’t you?”

“You have my word that I will teach you everything there is to know about music. Practice makes perfect they say, and doesn’t matter how you practice or who you practice with.”

“I will make both of you and mom proud. I will sing for the whole world papa. Just you watch!” The child says with excitement.

His dad giggles and responds back with “I know you will my son. Your voice will be a cherish sound to everyone’s listening someday.”

Then the image of the dad then fads away. Having deep feelings right now about what Juka remembered when he was young. What his dad said made him regret leaving Moi dix Mois. One side of him thinks he was wrong and he should of never step down from the dark band. The other side of him thinks he did the right thing for leaving and did it for the best of the band that maybe they worked well without him.

After a while from all of the confusion, Juka gets up from his bed and decide to just take refreshing bath, just to put the stress off of him. His foots steps then lead to the bathroom. Before he did anything he looked at himself carefully in the self proclaim mirror. A sadden reflection looking back at him. He knew it wasn’t him. Looking at himself so closely, that a sudden smirk in his reflection appeared. It shocked Juka so fast, that he looked away so quickly. Not looking back and not wanting to find out what it was. He’s probably just losing his mind. After all he isn’t feeling well emotional wise, so things around him may make him see images that aren’t really there. Was his reflection an illusion or was he losing himself?

Overwhelm and lost, he just took off his clothes with force. He wanted to quickly get in the bath. He prepared the bath and put himself in.

“What is wrong me? Why am I acting so useless?” Juka speaks with a lonely voice. He feels the tension through his leg, as he is washing himself.

“It was a few years ago, so why are you thinking about it now?” He asks himself.

The more he thought about the past, he could feel water in his eyes. For that he sheds a tear from his vision. Everything is clouding him. More and more tears dropped and it felt as although he was in the middle of the ocean. It was that much that he cried. The more he had those memories in his mind, it made him loose his will to think confident thoughts. The blond vocalist doll was broken apart.

After his moment of dropping tears, the phone rang. He just remembered he was suppose to meet up with his friends today but a lot was going on that he just forgot. Although he couldn’t see was calling, he had a pretty good idea who was calling. Who couldn’t it be, none other then Kamijo, who else? Kamijo is probably just calling to remind him about it, as he tends to do. He’s a reminder. The phone rang a few times. The vocalist didn’t feel like leaving his bath so he left the machine to answer it.

“Hey you my beautiful doll. I know you’re there so pick up.” The voice of the prince said through the answer machine.

Juka could hear Kamijo’s voice. It was silence because he didn’t feel like picking up the phone, he was just too tried to talk after his departure from crying.

“Well okay, I’m just calling to see if you’re gonna meet up with us still. I hope you do. It would be very special if you were there. We’re planning to have a get together of all of the Sherow Artist Society. Well baby get back to me right away. See ya.”

Kamijo’s voice ended and the machine turn off. Now Juka really doesn’t want to do anything. He was just stuck of what to do. Thirty minutes has passed already and he got up from his bath. He turns off the water so it can go down the drain. His body was wet but it was wiped away from a towel. He wrapped the towel around his waist. The mirror that he was frighten by, he was curious enough to look at it again. This time nothing happen. It was a normal reflection. The lights turn off and he leaves the bathroom to head to his bedroom to get change for the so called party or whatever.

As he is getting dress, the phone rings again. Juka rolled his eyes and says “What does he want now?” being annoyed that it’s probably Kamijo again. The prince does tend call a lot. Not wanting to be annoyed from just a phone call, he picked up the phone anyway.

“Yes Kamijo I am coming to the party so you don’t have to worry, okay?” Juka says to him thinking Kamijo did call but he didn’t. It was silence. It left Juka frighten again.

“All right! This better not be one of those prank phone calls of yours, you hear?” He said with annoyed emotion.

“Why hello Juka. Do you know who this is?” The mysterious voice spoke.

The doll was shaking. The voice sounded just like him but it had more of a dark tone to it. He wanted to quickly hang up and not deal with it again but before he could, the darker half spoke.

“My sweet half, too bad you can’t hang up on me because I can see through to you and it wouldn’t be a good idea to hang up on me.” The dark adds more tension towards his voice.

“Who are you? How are you seeing me?” Juka asks frightenly.

“I am in your bathroom, watching you through the mirror. I see you in your bedroom.”

“Leave me now, I warn you!” Juka shouted.

“Oh we’ll see about that. Sweet dolly this has only just began.” The darker past Dix leaves with a chuckle.

Japanese Rock Culture

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 01:47:27 GMT

Thanks to the people who answered my survey. I took of what some of you said and while searching online, and putting what I already know about Jrock, I put it into my own Jrock outline. Which I will write into a speech later.

And if you ever need to do something in class of music and you wanna talk about Jrock. Feel free to use this outline. This is for everybody to look. Just remember to give me credit. ^_~

But believe it or not most of my info came from this site:

http://encyclopediadramatica.com/J-Rock

I CRACKED UP READING IT. LOLZ LOLZ

Anyway I'm so looking forward to this speech. I'm gonna have music, and I'm gonna create my own Jrock style. I might buy some stuff though to make it. (CJ maybe you can help me make it *wink wink*)

Do you realize that Japan has their own version of rock? Not many people know about Jrock because it’s still being spread through out the United Sates. Mainly because it’s not as popular of a genre in the US then any other countries. I'm going to talk about how the culture of Japanese rock. And how it brings a big impact on the audience every where.

HISTORY

1.) popular in Japan in mid late 60’s
2.) Local bands such as The spiders, The Tigers, Tempters started Jrock
3.) Homegrown Japanese country rock became popular
4.) Happy End influence
5.) 70’s it grew more popular in Japan
6.) bands like Champloose, Carol, RC Succession Shinji came famous
7.) 80s Boowy inspires alternative rock
8.) during the 80s a movement visual kei started
9.) 90s lead to new bands who followed the moment “Buck-Tick, X-Japan, Luna Sea, Malice Mizer, L’arc~en~ciel”
10.) B’z and Mr. Children establish for Japanese music history
11.) 2000s wasn’t as strong
12.) later years started to spread
13.) Newer Bands “Bump of Chicken, Uverworld, Orange Range achieved success in Jrock
14.) Since then Jrock became wide spread in Japan
15.) soon heading towards other countries

MUSIC

- Visual Kei
1.) Visual kei is most popular
2.) majority tend to have French names
3.) some bands are influence in French music
4.) tend to have names that Japanese people don’t use
5.) “X-Japan, Malice Mizer, Blood, Moi dix Mois, Dir en grey, The Gazette, Versailles, Hizaki Grace Project,”
6.) clothing tend to be more gothic and romance
7.) they act gay towards each other
8.) the vocals can be dark or light
- Oshare Kei
1.) mostly the bands to have alot of piercing
2.) the vocals are light
3.) they also act gay towards each other
4.) influence by modern pop rock
5.) music tend to focus on positive things such love and relationship
6.) clothing style is bright and colorful
7.) they also act gay towards each other but probably more then others
8.) some bands included are “An Cafe, Sug, Buns Mercy, HeaRT, Lolita23q”
- Angura Kei
1.) hardcore vocals
2.) the music tends be heavy from the most “heavy metal”
3.) primarily some are female bands
4.) nothing is happy in the music
5.) their clothing is darker
6.) they don’t tend to act gay towards each other
7.) bands including “Girugamesh, D’espairs Ray, Exist Trace, Unsraw, Sadie, Since1889, Meth”

FASHION

1.) Jrock fashion tend be more extreme
2.) some are dark and some are light
3.) each band styles are different
4.) some styles look like came out of the grave.
5.) others look like they came out of the circus
6.) they also add props towards their style. “like wings for example”
7.) wearing crazy contacts to make their styles more extreme
8.) some hair styles are colorful, spiked, curly, wavy, short, long
9.) some tend to look like sluts
11.) the fashion in Jrock influences the audience
12.) the Lolita style is influence by the Jrock music
13.) the sweet lolitas (lighter style) are more influence in the oshare kei bands
14.) the gothic lolitas(darker style) are more influence in the visual kei bands
15.) Mana is an artist that brings an impact on the gothic lolita fashion
16.) the make up they put on, tend make some not look Asian

LIFESTYLE

1.) In Jrock some bands tend to give fan-service (which is men kissing each hugging, and maybe more sexual contact)
2.) In Jrock some men cross dress “some famous cross dressers are “Mana, Kaya, and Hazaki”
3.) The Jrock concerts aren’t as different then others
4.) Jrock concerts do have different ways in pleasing their audience
which probably other bands won’t think of doing
5.) Japanese audience tend to be a boring crowd in concerts but other audience in other countries are wilder and crazier when it comes to Jrock bands
6.) which is why some fans in the US and other countries tend to be more obsessive
7.) which may lead to Jrock fans to have all sorts of fantasies about a follow band member
8.) Jrock also influences in the arts such as music, paintings, drawing, graphic design, writing and other art activities
9.) And also fans do enjoy making fun of Jrockers
10.) because some Jrockers are just way too weird and act like they are in kindergarden

Jrock has been around since the mid late 60’s in Japan. In later years soon becoming popular not only in Japan, but in other countries as well. Jrock brings a major impact in the fashion, music, and the arts. It can also bring upon on how someone acts. It does tend to make the fans crazy and obessive, that some are rude or violent towards each other. All together Japanese rock have their own sound of rock, which making it different from other rock genres in other countries.

Jrock Survey

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 20:53:41 GMT

Okay since I'm doing a speech on Jrock, I made up this survey for people to answer. You don't have to answer if you don't want to. I just want to see what people think of Jrock.

So if you do want to answer, then please post this in your own journal. This entry is open for everybody to answer.

If you're aren't on my friend's list, can you let me know if you took it, So I can take some notes, since after all I am doing a speech on Jrock.

1.) How long have you been into Jrock?

2.) Does Jrock influence you?

3.) What does Jrock mean to you?

4.) Do you think you’re obessed with Jrock?

5.) Do people want you to stop liking Jrock?

6.) Do you think you would be a Jrocktard all your life?

7.) What things of Jrock do you like?

8.) What things of Jrock don’t you like?

9.) Do you have friends who also like Jrock?

10.) Have you influence anyone into listening to Jrock?

11.) Where you infuence by someone also?

12.) When you first listened to Jrock, what was your reaction?

13.) What was the first band you listen to?

14.) What would you do if there wasn’t anymore Jrock?

15.) Are you more of a soft Jrocker or hardcore Jrocker? Or are you both? But that depends on what bands/artists you find soft or hardcore?

16.) What are some of your favorite bands/solo artists?

17.) If you could explain someone what Jrock is, would you? And what are some things you would say?

18.) Have you been to any concerts?

19.) What sets Jrock concerts apart then other countries?

20.) Whats the difference from Jrock from other rock music in other countries?

21.) Who are your fandoms? And how much do they mean to you?

22.) Do you like the idea that some Japanese rock artists give fanservice?

23.) Would you date a Jrocktard? Or would you date a Japanese rock artists?

24.) What bands/artists do you find annoying?

25.) What artists do you find sexy and hot?

26.) Would you like to be in Jrock video?

27.) Do you think some Japanese rock artists are more hardcore cross dressers then other countries?

28.) Do the fans piss you off?

29.) Do you own anything related to Jrock?

30.) Do people need to make a huge deal of Jrock?

Longing For You Beauty Part 5

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 20:14:02 GMT

Title: Longing For You Beauty
Author: Me :) Klaha's girl XD
Rating: PG
Warnings: None beside shonen ai
Pairings: KlahaxKlaha, KlahaxMana, ManaxMana
Chapter: Part 5 "Darkness Games"
Genre: Drama, Fantasy, Romance

Summery: Klaha is broken after the pleasure play with his other side and now his whole body is weak. Leaving his Malice Mizer alter ego looking after him. Time is fading as the darkness gets worst, going after the one victim that left Klaha broken in the first place. The dark will find out that his victium has another side to him.

Notes: Yay Part 5! I'm thinking of stopping at the next chapter. Because I want to move on with this story. So that I can start to write something else. But yea, I hope you enjoy this part.

Oh yea If you get confuse

Dix Lilac = Mana's womanly side

Dix Symphony= Mana's manly side.

And for this part, I added part of the lyrics of the song "Come Back To Me" by Razed In Black. The lyrics seemed to fit for the story so I added it.

And as always feed back is welcome and comments about this part. But please don't tell me about my language, yea I admit I'm sure their are some errors but I'm not a perfect editor.

The wind cries over this scarring night sky. The moon awaits for it’s arrival. The harsh of the wolf hollowing in this steam night, the time for the darkness to be awaken. Sound asleep peacefully is an angel captured by the chains of pain wrapped around him. Being a victim by his own Malice Mizer self.

The angel is kept silent with out no one ever knowing he is alive. The dark was more controlling with his presence. The differences set this mirage like shadow and the Malice Mizer era like character apart. In the Malice Mizer Klaha period, it was just for play, it was Klaha’s role. But this dark stage of the darkness now was no game. It was no longer Malice Mizer era anymore.

This was just a shadow figure to make it look like Malice Mizer era Klaha. It only lives if his other one lives. When Klaha was broken of his heart, it was given away by the darkness. That's when the Malice Mizer alter ego kept it for sealing, so that no one touches it, leaving the angel trap within his requiem dream.

The dark looks upon Klaha who is hung up with the chains wrapped around him, with no speech coming from his lips. The alter ego smirks a smile and touches his other side’s soft face.

“My, aren’t you a beautiful one. You’re more beautiful then I am. Who knew angels were so define. Maybe that's what sets us apart.” He says with a evilly tone.

Malice Mizer self gets close to Klaha’s lips and kisses him with a soft passion of lust. A lust that the darkness and the angel made for their so called pleasure, that only brought more pain upon the angel.

The melody of anger frustration played the tune. Holding in within the darkness. Time was fading by the moon’s shadow shining through the glassy window towards the alter ego. Steam coming off the foreplay body. This causing for Malizer self to change it’s form. The vision color changes to crimson red. Teeth for playful taste, grew longer. Long enough to crave some one of their every inch of blood. The craft and define hands, the nails grew longer, leaving marks on his victims. But for this, the Malice Mizer era was still a beautiful crimson rose vampire. Usually beautiful vampires are not common in the dark world.

The dark’s voice speaks with a deeper redemption. Klaha has a deep voice but the alter ego’s voice got deeper as he changed effetely.

“Well my angel I’m off to crucify those humans that no longer think you’re worthy. Especially that betrayal of Mana, who rejected your love. I’m doing this all for you. After all I can’t live with out you. Well have a good long rest my dear angel.” He says with a perish voice, giving Klaha his last kiss.

Malice Mizer self wraps his cape around him , turning himself into a nightmare black bat, as he flys towards the shining moon.

No movements, total silence. The angel can only think of what he wants to think because he doesn’t have a mind of his own. Everything has been taken from him. His heart, his soul, his light, his mind all that makes this angel.

My memories told me
In a dream once
That you've spent a quiet night in our past
A past still bleeding with questions
The answers too often ignored...
My torture

I let the stars
Witness the honesty
I am true to the lie
That I'll never be ...
I'll take a breath
To breathe you into me
I won't ever let it go
'til you come back to me

In the long distance, a sadden mask but a joy expression that is hidden of the beautiful Dix lilac. He stares into the self proclaim mirror. Two personalities that are shown. The Dix lilac in the confusing world, and the mysterious Dix
symphony in the mirror. The lilac reaches out to the mirror to reach to his other personality but a shine through the glass shows up the dark Klaha. The alter ego smirks shiftily. Frighten, the lilac steps away and accidentally falls.

Malice Mizer ego steps out of the mirror, and walks in a calm way towards him. The lilac just stares frightenly at the Malice Mizer alter ego Klaha.

“You seem unsure of yourself Mana. You seem like you never saw me before in your life.”

A silent was forceful as the Dix lilac stares emotionless with fear upon him.

“Do you not speak? I heard you broke my other side’s heart. Because of you, his heart now belongs to me.”

Still a silence from the Dix lilac.

“Why so mute now? You weren’t like this with that other human.” He says with coldness, as he picks up the beautiful lilac’s chin with his long nails. Then whispers in his sounding hearing, “Did you enjoy it?”. Then licks the lilac’s ear.

A groan came out of the lilac, to make him speak after all.

“Who are you?”

“Do you not remember me Mana? I was the one you wanted in your so called play?”

“This Klaha is not the one I use to know. WHO ARE YOU?!” The lilac shouted with rage of fear.

“If that's the way you want to go, then I have no choice.”

Steam teeth appeared as the dark Klaha grabbed Mana with force and bit the shiftily neck. A drip of blood came down from the mark. He continues to suck to get every inch of the crimson blood. Then the lilac gracefully falls on the floor. Alter ego wipes his hand of the rich and tasteful blood.

He gets up and shifts his body so that his back is towards the lilac Mana.

“Pathetic worthless human you are. Wanting me to play with you but then you go out of your way to destroy my other one’s heart. And then here you are, don’t even remember my presence. You Mana are nothing but betrayal. It’s a shame that I have to kill you. You too are beautiful but not as beautiful as my angel.”

“Is that what you confront or are you just making up excuses for your own selfish games?” The Dix symphony says as he finally appears.

Shocked, the dark Klaha turns around and finds that Mana has another personality. The Dix symphony picks up the Dix lilac carefully and gracefully as he was to carry the lilac into bed.

“Well, well what do we have here?”

“Your mind is in disturbia. Your darkness is Klaha’s light. You have no one but yourself to blame. No one is responsible for your games.”

“Who ever said it was a game?”

“When I look at you, you’re nothing but a monster. This is nothing but Klaha’s confusion, that is what makes up you.”

“Then what makes up you then? You’re certainly another side of the lilac. So don’t tell me this is how I was born, by Klaha’s confusion.”

“KLAHA IS NOT LIKE THIS AT ALL!!! You’re not Klaha, you’re a flesh eating monster.”

“Is that how you confront it, then I guess I shall kill both of you now.”

The Dix symphony backs away slowly with the Dix lilac in his arms. The darkness just keeps walking to the symphony leaving him to a dead end, when he sees th edge to hell.

“You’re helpless. You’re trap. You can either give up or both of you go straight to hell. Your call.”

“NEVER!!”

The symphony drops down his lilac carefully. He then rushes towards the so called flesh eating monster and hits him with a force so hard, leaving the dark to scream in pain but serectly it didn’t have any effect on him.

“You need to go to hell, NOT me. Klaha needs to be free from you.”

“It’s a shame that your hit didn’t hurt me at all and here you talk about that I should go to hell.”

Dropping on his knees, the Dix symphony knew he is helpless and that their is nothing he can do.

The alter ego picks up the symphony’s chin forcefully and kisses him harshly.
None other then poison that the Dark gave the angel, the taste came through the symphony. Leaving him to fall to the ground along side with his lilac beside him.

“No can save you now. You Mana have been destroyed of your betrayal ways.
I guess it’s on to the next victim. That so called dark lord of yours. Which he is no dark, I am the dark and no one else. I shall bring this world into chaos and darkness, that their is only a world for the angel and I.”

Malice Mizer Klaha picks the Dix symphony by the arm and has his body towards the edge of hell.

“You were the annoying personality, so you have to go. Have a nice trip down their.”

He then drops the symphony having the him fall endlessly. The dark stands on the edge and looks down at hell.

“That is your home now. Your lilac can’t ever wake up now.”

Malice Mizer wrapping his cape around, and turning himself into a bat again, to fly towards his next victim, the dark lord, Seth.

In hell, the ego thought he dropped the symphony all the way down, but he managed to grab onto something, forcefully pulling himself up. He managed to climb up to see his lilac was still lying their.

“Even in sleep you still beautiful.”

Dix symphony got closer to the lilac, as his lips got closer to his other personality's lips. Then he gives his lilac a soft kiss. The lilac’s eyes then open. Leaving the symphony with a relieved. The mark the Malice Mizer Klaha left was gone.

“It’s you.” The Dix lilac touches his other side’s face.

“Yes. You’re safe now. I’ll never let anyone touch you. I shall protect you.”

“How’s Klaha doing?”

“I’m afraid you don’t remember dear one. He is captured by his own darkness that it’s gonna be hard to destroy.”

“Why is that?”

“For one, he is coming after our band mate Seth, and their is no way we get there in time. Transportion is useless when you’re dealing with a monster. This darkness can teleport when ever he wants to.”

“HOW ABOUT KLAHA?!!! WE MUST SAVE ME!!!”

“Dear one, you forgotten everything haven’t you but we can’t save Klaha right now. That will . . .”

The lilac pauses him and shouts “NO!!! I KNOW THEIR IS A WAY TO SAVE KLAHA!!! I’LL DO IT MYSELF, IF YOU WON’T HELP ME!!!”.

“GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF!!! You are far too weak to do anything.”

“I WANT KLAHA BACK!!! I WANT. . .”

The symphony pauses his other side and kisses his lips. Leaving the lilac to hug his other side.

“I’m sorry, please don’t me mad at me.”

“Dear one, I can never be mad at you. After all you are me.”
“What can we do now? Seth is helpless against that monster.”

“Don’t worry. I have a plan.”

“What is the plan?” The lilac question curiously.

“Okay, I’ll go after the monster to try to save Seth and you go try to save Klaha.”

“But you’re helpless too. We’re far too weak without each other.”

“You’re right. That's why we need back up. I’ll call everyone that we ever known to help. This darkness is a beast and one person won’t destroy it.”

“Then how am I suppose to help Klaha all by myself?”

“Don’t worry dear one, you have that charm necklace that can protect you. But it must be used carefully or else it can destroy your heart if it’s not use at the right time. All your energy is inside the charm that can probably save Klaha. I have a charm too.”

“I’m scared. I can’t do this. I can’t do this. What if I fail? What if Klaha is trapped forever? What If I lose you?” The lilac side looks upon his other side with teary eyes.

The symphony pulls his lilac towards his chest.

“My beautiful lilac, please don’t worry yourself too much. I believe in you with all my heart.”

“Okay. Then I shall go and try to save Klaha.”

“Yea we better harry. Seth is in great danger. Okay go on my lilac.” The symphony pulls away his other side.

“Uhhh one problem, where is Klaha?

By the power of god, a shine comes through on them as they are blinded by the light. Then it goes away, to find Klaha being is hung up, wrapped in chains shown through the mirror.
“Their is your answer.”

“Okay, good bye my symphony.” The lilac steps inside the mirror.

“Good luck dear one.” His final words to the lilac as he pulled away his hand.

The symphony is all alone now. He calls up every one he has ever known to help him destroy dark Klaha. He even calls Gackt, which in long time he’ll never call for help. But he didn’t care, he needed all the help he can get it. Even the spirit of Kami to help. This leaving the Dix symphony waiting patiently for the calls. It’s the only way he can reach them. He doesn’t have powers like the Dark Klaha.

But the Dix symphony can’t wait, who knows if Seth has been taken by his blood by now. Only fate will tell, as the Dix symphony sits on his chair and waits for the calls.

Hazuki Dances Stupidly

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 19:08:25 GMT

Just watch.

If you know the band Lynch, I'm sure you can figure out who Hazuki is.

If not he's the one in light purple. XD

I loves him. ^^

This amused me so much. It made my day. WTF were they on.

Jrock Lolz

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 04:37:15 GMT

I just want you guys to know I do have a life. lol

I wasn't sure if these were cosplayers. but whatever.

If you get what I was going with this then you win. lol

Damn, Mikaru's chest. Holy shit. 0_0

Jrock Story

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 22:28:01 GMT

I seen this in a few journals and I wanted to do it for a while now. It was so funny reading people's answers. So yea.

Randomly pick 12 J-Rockers:

1. Juka
2. Kyo
3. Gackt
4. Miyavi
5. Klaha
6. Mana
7. Hizumi
8. Kamjio
9. Hyde
10. Seji
11. Reita
12. Hizaki

Does 10(Seji) strike you as a voyeur and/or an exhibitionist?

Idk, I don't see Seji being either of those.

Who from your list would 11(Reita) most likely bottom to?

He would bottom Hizumi.

Hizumi seems more hardcore, and stronger, but yet Reita looks like a sex offender, so who knows.

Would you rather do 3(Gackt) or 5(Klaha)?

OMG KLAHA ALL THE WAY!!!! Sorry Gackt. :P But still, Gackt is also hot so it's hard to pick, put I'd still do my angel. XD

Which of 4(Miyavi) and 1(Juka) would you rather have do you? ]

Juka baby!!! My baby doll. Juka you and me every day, all night long. XD

Miyavi never in a million years would I want to do you. You'd probably make random noises during sex and do the Miyavi things you do and it won't be pleasurable. I think you're sexy but I don't see us having sex. lol

12(Hizaki) and 2(Kyo) are having sex in an airplane. Construct a snippet of dialogue that happens during this encounter.

*Hizaki thinks* "This is who I not wanted to have sex with. Kamjio, guys where the hell are you?"

Kyo: Rawarrrr!!!! You're so hot Hizaki . . .*thrust*

(Thats a scary site. Kyo fucking Hizaki. Just no.)

How much would you pay to see naked pictures of 11(Reita)? Have you? Where can the rest of us find these pictures?

I actually wouldn't pay anything. Reita you're hot and I would love to see you naked but I wouldn't risk my bank account just to see you naked. But if it was Gackt(since he already done nude but never showed his god damn penis. HE'S SUCH A TEASE)

Where are 5(Klaha) and 9(Hyde) most likely to have sex? Who on your friends list is most likely to write a fic about it?

Hmmm, I think probably the old fashion way. Bedroom. They have such a kind soul that they would want everything to feel comfortable. >:)

I believe I had a talk about this with jishcreator about this pairing. And I think she would. lol

And I gotta say, IT WOULD BE SO HOT TO SEE KLAHA AND HYDE HAVING SEX. OMG They're both so gorgeous. I needs to do a fan-fic about them too. XD

When 12(Hizaki) masturbates, he thinks about...

Who else then Kamijo. I mean come on. They make such a good couple.

What is 11's(Reita) favorite sex toy?

I don't know. Should I ask Reita himself. lol

But a condom isn't a sex toy but I'm sure he would love to be protected. XD

Come up with a title for a 12(Hizaki)/7(Hizumi)/1(Juka) three way. Would you read it? Would you write it? What would some of the warnings be?

My Sexual Plays XD

Actually I would. Considering how much of a pervert I am when it comes to Jrock.

No I wouldn't because Hizumi doesn't belong. (That sounds wrong). Juka makes a better match with Hizaki.

Warnings: N-17, R, +18 :P

Three some, men sex, yaoi

Who's more likely to be tied up during consensual sex, 2(Kyo) or 6(Mana)?

Thats so easy. KYO WOULD. Mana would so take Kyo down. GO MANA!!

But I think Mana, would just leave him their. XD

As a birthday present, 7's(Hizumi) longtime lover 5(Klaha) offers to do whatever 7(Hizumi) wants in bed. What's 7's(Hizumi) secret birthday wish?

WTF. Hizumi and Klaha. Also no. But Hizumi doesn't look zombiefied now so it could work. He looks gangsterfied. lol

Choose a food item for 4(Miyavi) and 12(Hizaki) to use together.

A 12 inch hot dog. XD

8(Kamjo) and 4(Miyavi) are in a fulltime relationship. Who's the top?

LMAO. Miyavi is the clueless one. Of course Kamjio is on top. He's the ladies and gentlemen's man. :P

Which fetish is 9(Hyde) least likely to indulge?

Anything that can show his legs.

Fish nets. Corset.

What would you do if you had 8(Kamjio) naked, willing, and ready in your bed?

Okay now that would be creepy. When I come home and Kamjio is on my bed naked and is ready for me then I would freak. But I actually would get ready for him too. XD I mean come on, you can't deny the hot prince.

What would 5(Klaha) do if he had 8(Kamijo) naked, willing and able in his bed?

Klaha would probably walk away slowly and be WTF. "Like I must be in the wrong house."

What wouldn't 10(Seji) and 4(Miyavi) tell their friends about their sex life, assuming they had both a mutual sex life and some friends?

Seji would never have sex with Miyavi. I don't see Seji as a sexual person, which I least think of.

Miyavi would probably be the one to spill the beans. He's such loud mouth.

10(Seji) gets a tattoo to declare his/her eternal love for 9(Hyde). Where is it? What does it say?

Lol. Seji would probably get it in his arm and it would say dark vampire, which Hyde is. :P

Imagine that 2(Kyo) writes an erotic 11(Reita)/1(Juka)/6(Mana) fic. What sort of summary might the fic he/she writes have?

Who knows what goes in Kyo's mind.

If 2(Kyo) walked into the room wearing nothing but a red thong and a feather boa, how would 8(Kamijo) react?

Forgot the thong, Kyo would go naked while wearing the feather boa. But Kamjio's respond is WTF.

And the obligatory fill in the blanks erotic fairy tale! Change the numbers with the matching names on your list.:

Hyde (9) and Juka (1) are having a quickie in a broom closet when Kamijo (8) walks in on them. Naturally enough, Kamijo (8) joins in, first paging Gackt (3), who's in the middle of fucking Klaha (5) into the mattress. Gackt (3) abandons Klaha (5) on the verge of orgasm, excited by the possibility of illicit broom closet sex, and Klaha (5) is left irate, and becomes a highly paid prostitute until the well-meaning and generous Miyavi (4) attempts to rescue him. But Klaha (5) will have none of it, refuses to be redeemed, and opens a high-class brothel in Los Angeles, where Seji (10) is one of his regular clients.

LMAO. The last one just cracked me. OMG. But poor Klaha. If Gackt ever did that to Klaha, I would knock him one.

And I discovered new Jrock band called "Despair". No it's not D'espairs Ray. lol

And their music is sick. But I wouldn't recommend them if you don't like hardcore music. Because the vocals are pretty harsh. They're a hardcore, electronic, industrial group, with maybe metal influence.

I'm So Easily Amused

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 23:10:07 GMT

Oh god, you had no idea how hard I laughed when I saw this. I nearly died laughing because of it. It was just so fuckin stupid but yet so funny at the same time. Hey I like Drowning Pool but this was so amusing to me. This person wins a cookie.

Longing For You Beauty Part 4

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 00:40:14 GMT

Title: Longing For You Beauty
chapter: Part 4 "Darkness Takes Control of Me"
pairing: (Malice Mizer)Klaha X (solo project)Klaha :P
Rating: 18+
Warning: sex, manxhimself(xD)

Summery: After what Klaha saw he just nearly broke down. So he thinks things wouldn't get worst, as his former self from the past band Malice Mizer final appears. But this time it's a darker era then MM. Stay tune what happens when two different sides meet up?

Note: In order to get this part, you have to know the past band Malice Mizer during the Klaha era. Thats when klaha was more of a gothic aristocrat so if you know Klaha's status now then you'll get how this part of the story is going.

And also I use some of the words from two songs to match this part of the story. The first song I pulled out is "Meaning of Life" by Disturbed. I used that song cuz is talking about sex so yea you know what I'm getting at. And the next one I pulled out was "First Date" by Blink182. Well that song also fit because it's about being together and all that crap. Two kick ass songs that I like. ^^

Well enjoy the story. Let me know what you think. ^_~

When Klaha saw that dreadful site in front of him he just broke down. He just didn't know what to do. He had so many things going on his mind that he was too confuse to know anything. So he just lied on his bed with his face upward as his hand is on his forehead.

This feeling created an atmosphere of heart broken. All he could think about was his past lover Mana, and it couldn't get out of his mind. Like it was trapped inside making him remember Mana still. So then he shut his eyes and just rested to get away from it all.

But then all the sudden as Klaha is resting, he saw a figure appear from within his thoughts.

"Hello Klaha" The other side of Klaha said his a evilly tone.

The more darker half. Klaha had a shock look on his face. He could hardly believe it was him. He knew thats how he was back in Malice Mizer but somehow he could sense that this force of himself is more darker and powerful.

"What do you want?!" Klaha shouted as he was frighten from his former self.

"Now, now. Is that how you treat yourself? I am you remember. A little welcoming would of been nice."

"Get out of me!!"

"I don't think so." His dark smirks.

"Why have you come? Tell me!!"

"Well since your ex-lover Mana no longer needs you, I came to take back your soul to fight your troubles."

"Mana will always love me!! I won't let you have my soul!!" Klaha trys to run so he can wake up but the force kept him back and he stuck in a dream.

"I have you trap Klaha. You or no one else can wake you up now. You are stuck like this forever. But why should it matter? No one needs you anyway. They liked me better." The dark moves in closer and unbuttons his shirt and licks his neck.

"No. . ." He gives a little push.

"Whats the matter? Whats wrong with playing with me? I am you remember? Were you turn on by seeing your ex with another man?"

So for the dark takes off klaha's shirt. Klaha then just froze and was lost into his touch. The other side put a pill in his mouth and put it in klaha's mouth.

"Now chew"

Then the dark moved his tongue towards Klaha to get the pill working. The pill was a spell for the dark Klaha to be unleashed from within Klaha's mind. After all those years since the brake up of Malice Mizer, Klaha kept him trapped since he wasn't in that stage anymore. That could explain why he was feeling well. It was his dark self trying to get out and give him memories of how he use to be.

"So how you feeling Klaha? A little weary?"

Klaha said nothing. Too lost to say anything.

"Thought so. I'll arrange for you to speak but only with your moans."

The force licks his nipples. Klaha gives a slient moan. Then the other side unzips Klaha's pants. And both of their clothing were off. Both expose of each other. The heated passion was in the shadows that surrounds them.

Then the darker gives Klaha's chest a message, licking and getting them wet. Klaha then gives off with breaths.

"How do you like this Klaha?" He teased as he went down to suck on his hard on. Klaha to tried to rest him off but his former self was too strong for him. And his mouth was on Klaha's penis and the dark began sucking with the force of gravity. Klaha leads out a cry of the tongue.

"Stop . . . please" Klaha sounding weak as he couldn't take the blows.

"Whats wrong sweat heart? It's my cock I'm tasting too?, so I'm getting horny too."

The flow repeats as the dark Klaha's sucking became heaver. For every breath he heard, he got closer to the area.

"I'm. . . ahhh" Klaha could feel his nerves building inside his erection.

"Then I don't want to keep you waiting." As the darker, repeated the pattern and brought Klaha into surrounding vanilla.

"Ahhhh!!" Klaha shouted out for his orgasm.

The dark touched Klaha and as he was all horny from his lighter self moans.

"Klaha I'm you. I'm the only one that understands you. I can feel the blood, flowing through my veins, spilling on my soul and now the hunger's getting bigger. I must have you but no one else. I grave for you pretentious one."

"You're nothing but an image of my imagination now!!! Let me out!!"

"Not going to happen. Give in. Don't wanna wait until we finish the show."

The dark touches his face and kissed him.

"You see we're the same. You may not realize that but we are. I was you but now you have me locked. Klaha I just want to be here in case you need me again." The darkness hugs Klaha, but then it went slient.

"Whats wrong dear one?"

"I just didn't think when I was you."

A painful smack came across Klaha's face. Anger of frustration came upon the dark self mood. He knew that Klaha liked it when he was with Malice Mizer.

“You liar!! You had such an experience with everyone. Thats what has brought you here today.”

“I just don’t care!! Just leave me alone!!” As Klaha still tries to get out from within his dream but he was much too weak to get away. And no one but his darker self can hear him. His voiced is locked inside the darkness that surrounds him.

“If thats what you want then I guess we’re gonna psycho.”

Darkness grabbs Klaha’s ass and stucks his length inside and a cry came out from the lightness.

“Thats right cry only for me since no one else can hear you.”

I guess my voice ment nothing to anyone

Another thrust.

I guess this is what pain is like when you had your heart broken

“Wanna hear you say it, say you want it, need it Klaha.” He pushes faster.

This is not what I wanted.

“ It hurts. . .please stop”

The dark ingnores him and continues to thrust. Then the flow of tears runs down through Klaha’s eyes.

“It's not enough to have a little piece
I want the whole damn thing now.”

Thats right give me the whole thing. It’s only you I have beside me.

Another moment comes upon as his darkness forcefully moves Klaha to ride him.

“Ahhhhh . . . I don’t want anymore . . .”

“Then why are you moaning so passionate. Like you are graving for it. Hmmm?”

Klaha moves himself faster.

“Ahhhh. . . oh yes Klaha.” His former self is feeling good from the riding his lighter self is making.

It’s just you and me in this world. Please don’t lose me.

“ I . . .ahhhh . . .” Light Klaha gets louder with his moans.

“Ahhhh . . . yes me too”

A kiss of desire makes it a way of this passinate blood thirsty play.

“Klaha it’s you and me . . . never let go of you . . .”

Yes I do promise. I can only count on you since after all you are me.

As the pressure of the heat was rising through their bodies as they grabbed onto eachother for their cry of pleasure.

The force play ended as Klaha lied on to something excusted while the shadows surround him. Malice Mizer self went up to kiss Klaha and his words of betrayal spoke.

“Klaha you are me, I do love you, I don’t want you to be in pain anymore. Please don’t look at me with those eyes. Please don’t hint that you’re capable of lies. So lets make this last forever.”

I’m resting in my own dream but I can hear those words you’re saying to me. Yes lets make this last forever since I don’t want to lose myself which is you my dark aristocrat.

The gothic artiscotic touches that soft face and kisses it one more time, since this is going to be the last time Klaha will be.

“Klaha I’m taking over now. I’ll repay for you that anyone who has hurt your heart.”

So the dark puts on a cape wakes up Klaha’s body from the dream he was in. But now the force of his former self has taken over of Klaha’s body. So Malice Mizer era is going to repeat it’s self but this time it’s a whole new era that people will for tell.

“You hurt me once, and I’ll shall hurt you like you never been hurt before.”

Using Pictures To Describe Me ^^

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 19:41:33 GMT

got this from larosenocturne

1. Think of the first word that comes to mind when you think of me.
2. Go to Google Images (dArt or flickr) and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results. (To insert an image, type < img src="url of the image">, but without a space between the opening bracket and "img.")
4. Put this in your own journal so that I can do the same. (optional, of course)

Photography Spam

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 05:19:24 GMT

These are the pictures I took recent. For more of my work go to my deviantart gallery. Well enjoy.

Preview:

An Angel's Support

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 02:13:01 GMT

Title: An Angel's Support
pairing: JukaxKlaha
chapter: one shot
WARNING: none actually but that it's shonen-ai.

Summery: Two vocalist from past bands have two different paths. Juka supports Klaha's place in music but Klaha is unsure of his. So Juka does all he can to comfort him. Will Klaha break down still or will Juka's voice reach out to him?

Notes: Wow I nearly had this idea for almost 2 weeks for my addictions of my fandoms. My friend thought it was a good idea so why not. I sort of change some things. I did have sex in the story but I change my mind. (even though I like writing about sex :P) but sometimes I shouldn't write so much stories involving sex because then my stories will get boring. So yea.

And also this story is suppose to mean something between JuKa's current status and Klaha's. So yea. Now you're probably thinking odd couple but you know what?, to me it's so right. :P

To get a picture in your mind here are some smexy pictures. >:)

The god is crying hard today as I am staring at my window. A man on a chair in my living room is soaking wet. He’s just sitting their with an empty look. I took him in because he looked like he was lost or something as I was driving by.

I turn away from the window and looked towards his beauty. He looked more beautifully in person especially when he didn't wear any makeup that he was already gorgeous. When I saw him in person I was blown away by the wind of grace. I have seen him before and heard about him but I never got around to get to know his name in place of music. His music was the voice of an angel speaking from his heart.

“So you’re Klaha huh?” I asked.

He said nothing. His eyes looked like they were about to cry like the god today. He was just frozen as ice. What could I do to make him feel comfortable? I didn’t want him to feel this way. Did something happen that he don’t speak?

“Klaha I won’t hurt you I just want to help you.” I said softly and comfortably as I could. So he could know I’m here for him, even know he doesn’t know me. As I said those words to touch his soft face.

Then he looked up at my vision. And I smiled with a relieved. At least my voice got through, so he didn’t completely kept silent from me.

“I don’t know what I am anymore?” He said with a frustrated voice, having his hands on his forehead, a sign of stress and emotion. I could feel the force of emptiness within his heart. A feeling like he didn’t know himself.

I stepped away to give him some room. I just looked at him with wonder. I just didn’t know what to say to such an angel. I didn’t want to anger myself in making a mistake by helping him if something goes wrong. Then a drop of rain ran down from his pure eyes.

“My music just doesn’t give a meaning anymore since everyone likes my former dark stage music. I don’t want to go back to the way I use to be. I just can’t seem to find my place.” His voice said, sounding so lonely having the volien’s cry by his presence.

His words of sorrow put me in a tough lock in my mind. I truly didn’t know what to say to someone who I didn’t know. But I didn’t care. I still wanted him to know that their is someone that supports his rhythm of music. So I got closer to him and hugged him. He felt so warm and soft. But I could feel the sadness from within him.

Then a moment notice, I felt hands come up my back and to give me a welcoming hug. I guess this showed how my voice was getting through to him. He hugged me for a decent time with a slient of prayer. I didn’t want to break this bond but there were still things we had to confront with
eachother.

“Klaha, is that the reason why you are slient towards the public?” He pulled away his hands and froze again. Then a tear came about again in front of my vision.

“I just want to do whats best for me and still have people cherish my sound.”

“I know how you feel Klaha.”

“You’re the same?” He question.

“Yes. I once was in the dark stage scene but now it’s a whole new era for me. You heard of Moi dix Mois right?”

“I have but I never got around to listen to the music.”

“Well I use to be the band’s past vocalist but I decided that I didn’t want to do this anymore because our differences in styles just kept us distance from eachother.”

“I see. You have two paths too?”

“You’re correct. And as for me, fans still talk about me, saying they like the new vocalist better or that I fitted Moi dix Mois better. I’m sure they did that with you too.”

“Very much so.”

“Then it just makes me so confuse. I just can’t seem to get people right.”

“So you’re like me. Knowing that the fans liked you when you were back in the former band.”

“Yes but you know what, I don’t fucking care anymore. The past is the past and it’s time to move on. You can’t make everyone happy now a days. They just have to deal with it.”

I grabbed his shoulders and looked straight into his sight.

“Now Klaha please stop this. Your music has always touched me no matter what. I listened to it when you were with Malice Mizer and now I still listen to it. I don’t want you to change because of the fans not being pleased. If they don’t like you now, then I guess they didn’t have respect for your music.”

Then all of the suddan I could feel myself go slient. As these words were clouding my mind.

I couldn't stand his pain
My heart was racing for this to be over
I didn't want to speak these words anymore
This angel doesn't need to hear this
He is much to gentle for his soul to be broken
If I did spoke any longer
I think I would rip out his wings
And make him walk in to shattered darkness
Of the sound of ceremonial requiem

Thats how I could feel this pain bearing my mind
In the request of my own death of oath
I pity the red roses and just give him comfort of support
To his rhythm of his choice that he follows

For this I break anyone who shatters this angel's reasoning
And feed him lies of betrayal
Because in the long dazing road he'll always surpass thy
To his presence of his soul which he holds dearly
To surpass the phantoms that created his confusion

So please god free this angel from under his shelter
And make him fly into the light of heaven
And make him see what it is to be alive
Just he could fly forth, forever searching himself

Right then I couldn’t stop myself. I just had to have this man as I thought to myself but I didn’t feel it was nessary because I didn’t feel having sex doesn’t always express the way you feel. But I still shut the shades having privacy for us. Our bodies then went down together down the couch as we got things off. No flinching or anything but instead he went along with it. Then a suddan movement came at the mouth as our tongue’s whirled. I only gave him a gengle circling but his was more intense. His kisses was truly moving into a rough flow. I didn’t know what to quite make of it. But I passed along with it following his movements because our kiss ment that we are now linked with eachother. Then our mouth came out with a string of drool as we pulled away.

I looked into his pure eyes right then. I just can’t keep my vision off of them. They were god’s water of nature because they were so pure.

He looked at me and touched my face.

“I want to be with you from now on.”

“Klaha, I’ll be more then happy to. I can’t break away from such a beautiful man.”

We stood right up just lying right next to eachother. My hands then led to give him a message in the shoulders. Making him relax.

As we looked up at our eyes and smiled of joy. Our lips met again as we kissed for one more session.

“Forever okay?”

“Yes. I repeat on my death of oath.”

I felt his warmth again as this time I could feel soft wings come from within his back like they were wrapped around me. He was keeping me safe with his transparent with wings. For this I think his heart is starting to not feel cold and dead like a grave. I hope it stays this way.

As long as I am alive, I shall protect this angel. So if I die, I’ll come back and still protect from those phantoms that gave him the confusion in the first place.

“Juka, There are unseen wings upon my back
And I fly forth, forever searching the world
I want to snatch someone imprisoned by pain and loneliness
From the depths of the darkness
And protect them with my wings”

“Well Klaha, Rose...
Node of Scherzo...
Where the feel
glowing lover

That is a thing that crosses the time
That is even more passionate than the idea
That is healing even the pain
The eternity enfolds everything

We change this time
indeed more beautifully than a rose” I said to him with notes taken from lyrics from a familiarly live act I did and I smiled at him.

“I love you Juka.”

“And I’m so in love with you.”

So then we driffted off into a kiss again and as we lied on top of eachother. Both going into a peaceful dream.

Well now I know that Klaha will find himself someday. It may not be today but whenever it comes, I’ll be their by his side, supporting his music at any giving time.

Mana Macros!!

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 00:59:12 GMT

The only reason why I make macros just so I can pass the time of boredom. lol

Any why I hope you like them. ^^ You can also see them at jrockhumor community, the manadaily community, cult of_mana commuity.

If you seen the episode of Spongebob where him and Patrick were selling chocolate bars then you'll get the caption

And also I want halloween to come. I wants to wear my costume so bad. It's like the forces of darkness is calling me to come out. lol

Klaha Macros!!

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 22:55:47 GMT

I've been thinking of Klaha alot lately and I decided to make some macros of him. ^^ So enjoy

And oh yea where do people get those text for their macros. They're like white with the blank outline and it's easy to read. If you know wat I'm talking about then can you let me know. Thanks in advance.

And if you didn't notice I finally figured out how to do lj cuts so thanks to everyone who helped me made this happen. You know who you are. ^_~

Klaha holds his hands like he is pregant. :P lols Thats the first thing I thought when I saw this pic

If you seen the episode of Spongebob Square Pants where Patrick and Spongebob were selling chocolate bars, then I'm sure you'll get this joke :P
If you seen the commercial 4 that sports drink idk how to spell it but I'm sure you'll know wat I'm talkin bout. then you'll get this joke :P
I'm just so dirty minded seriously. The microphone in this pic just doesn't look right to me, I'm sorry. You can bitch slap me if you want but thats wat I think.

sorry If I used the word Nigga again but it's just I'm makin fun of the word cuz that word has been used so many times that it's been overrated. Use some other words then nigga.

EDIT: Thanks tsukikei for the site. ^^ Now I'm going to be using that site from now on. And actually thanks to everyone for helping me out. I luvs it. And now I'm going to edit my posts now.

Halloween Costume

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 21:29:43 GMT

Okay so for Halloween I'm going to be Alice from Alice In Wonderland but a gothic vampire. Sounds epic right?

This is what my costume is.

And I drew this and edit in photoshop to show you how my costume is going to look. If you couldn't tell, it's suppose to be Mana modeling my costume. I fail at drawing Mana though, I could never get his lips right so in my part it's a fail, but my point is, you're just focusing on the costume. Minus the hair and the makeup though.

So yea. I'll post some pictures of it when the time comes. So what is everyone else gonna be for halloween?

Juka Macros

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 05:01:33 GMT

I made some Juka macros because I'm bored and I thought it would be fun. I'm so easily amused. :P Plus Juka is my 3rd biggest fanatic so I just had to do it.. I'm not your humor person so I know it may not be funny to you. Hope you still like them still. :P

Longing For You Beauty Part 3

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 01:12:31 GMT

Title: Longing For You Beauty
chapter: Part 3 "Broken Then Reborn"
Paring: SethxMana >:P (Implied KlahaxMana)
Rating: 18+
Warning: Men smex :P

Summery: As Mana is broken, Seth is there to comfort him. Then something happens again that makes Mana forget the pain inside his heart.

Notes: This story is still being continued. And it will get better in later parts. I still have lots of ideas for this story. So this is not nearly the climax of the story. And by the way Klaha, Seth and Mana are hot!!. That is all. :P

Part 1

Part 2

In the bed still, Mana is still crying on Seth’s shoulder. He wishes that Klaha never saw him this way. Mana isn’t a slut, he just wants to be loved by someone at any given time. He didn’t know Klaha still loved him since they only saw eachother once from their break up from Malice Mizer which was a few years ago. You would think Klaha will call or something instead of suprising Mana & Seth during their making, which really hit them rock solid.

“Please don’t cry anymore Mana”, Seth said comfortly as he wipes his running tears from Mana’s eyes.

“I didn’t want him to see me like this” Mana sounded more quailty as those rain drops came down from his vision.

Seth got annoyed from all of this but not from Mana though. He was annoyed because of the fact that Klaha appeared out of no where without any sign he was coming to see Mana, which really pissed off Seth. And when Seth is pissed of, you don’t mess with him cuz he’s alot scarier then K. And K is the scarist from their band.

“I’m really sorry Mana. I didn’t mean for this to happen”, says Seth while trying make him feel better.

“It’s not your fault or Klaha’s, it’s just we misconnected. But now I’m sure Klaha-Sama probably. . .”

Seth pauses Mana from talking as he gave him a soft kiss to turn off those hatered words he’s speaking from his lips. And taps a finger on his lips.

“Thats enough talk from your lips”,

Mana just looks at him with wonder and all of the suddan he stops the flow of the tears and hugs Seth as he was like a soft teddy bear which Seth was.

“We should get some sleep Mana. We have a big concert in Europe and we both need our sleep. You know how K is and we’ll be too tried to put up with the rawarrrr!!!”

“But I don’t want to stop this night, lets repeat the embrace my dark lord”, Mana says as he went to touch his face.

“Anything for my elegant Mana.”

Then Seth brings Mana down on the bed again and began things off by licking his neck. So another moment is being brought upon in this dark night. Seth licked down and licks his nipples, rubbing them and giving them attention, anything to give him excited. Mana wasn’t moaning sexually at all but they were soft breaths. Then Seth kissed down with his tongue too reach the hard on. He grabbs it with both heads and puts in his mouth and began sucking from base to height.

“Ah! . . . Seth . . . your mouth” Mana moans as he got wetter from the passion of the sucking. As Seth kept sucking deep repeating the movements to reach his senstive area, giving it attention.

“ahhhhh!! feels good . . .”

“You taste good Mana-Sama”, as he sort of tease while he sucked on it some more, getting where the flavor soon to be.

The tension gets faster as Seth’s mouth would bring the nerves to build and making him come out with the white milk from within.

“Seth . . . your mouth . . .oh god!! so close . . .” Mana says trying to make out some words but it was just too overwhelming as he could feel himself come to a climax.

“Damn Mana, you’re moans are more sexier then me sucking you.”
Then Seth’s mouth leads Mana to an orgasm making him release the vanilla.

“Oh god Seth!!! . . . ahhhh!!! . . . I calm!!” Mana cries out as he relase his juice onto Seth’s face. Seth just licks it from his face and lies down next to Mana. But then Mana played with Seth’s nipple, doing what Seth did with his.

“Mana can I ask you something?”

“What is it Seth?”, Mana not really paying attention as he licks and moist at his nipples.

“Do you still love Klaha?”, Seth asks with a worried tone.

Mana then stop licking at his nipples and went blank. The name being brought into his mind. Bring the memories of the man who truely loved everything about Mana and he respect Mana the way he should be treated. He believed the Klaha’s love was no joke. He showed it in every possiable way. And that is why he’s probably the only one that Mana cared for and loved him like a lover with a rose. Then Seth saw a rain drop again from the saddness of his eyes and he quickly hugged mana.

“Oh gosh! I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to ask such question.”

“Seth it’s not your fault. Stop blaming yourself. I’m the one who I should blame, for hurting Klaha-Sama like this.

” Seth kisses Mana’s forehead. “It’s not your fault either. Love is a mysterious thing and it’s hard to figure the damn thing out. It just means you still love him still and thats find.

”Mana wipes his teary eyes again. The comforting words of Seth’s made him not cry again. That is why Mana loves Seth because of his way of comforting him.

“Wanna take me on now, if you’re up to it”, Seth just randomly just comes out and says it probably because he can’t stand the pressure and plus he’s bond to be hard by now by hearing those moans from Mana.

He nods yes. Even though he still loves Klaha and feels he shouldn’t be doing this but he does it anyway, to clear the pain from his heart for now. He knows that Seth is hot and that he can’t keep off from it. Sucking on him will probably make him even more hotter as he’ll hear the moans he makes which will turn Mana on.

So Mana grabs Seth’s package and puts it in his mouth and began sucking it away, which left the dark lord with a tempting moan. Mana’s mouth will pick up the paste soon after, making his lord more tempted as he could feel those nerves build up.

“Oh god Mana . . . yes !” Seth moans as Mana got turned on.

Mana liked his lord’s moans, that it pleased him even more. Seth wonder why Mana was good at sucking cock because this feeling Seth has never felt before and it felt so good to him. Mana has never told stories to his bandmates if he fucked other guys or not because thats something Mana does not want to say but Mana isn’t like that though. But Seth good probably tell. Mana knows that his bandmates fool around sometimes mainly because they’re fucked up in the head when they’re drunk and they have no clue what they’re doing. Especially Seth and K.

As Mana continued each blows from top to bottom, it made him go crazy as Mana’s blows were overwhelming because he could picture the white surrounding in his mind.

“Oh fuck . . . I’m close . . .”

And one last blow and it brought Seth into orgasm.

“Jesus Mana. You were fucking great.” As he pleaded and touches his hair.

“Seth-Kun please.” Mana blushes. Seth gives a smile. He knew what he said made Mana horny in a certain way.

Then all of the suddan their eyes met and their mouth got closer. And they kissed those passionated lips. Their mouth grabbing onto eachother, tongues circling, feeling every texture, getting deep in their mouths, making them drool.

As then they stop after theit session of love birds kiss, a string of drool came off their mouth as they pulled away.

“Mana don’t get me wrong, but you are fucking beautiful that I’m becoming more in love with you.” Seth confronts his feelings as he touched his face.

“It’s find Seth, but just know that my heart still belongs to Klaha-Sama.” As he too touched his face.

“I don’t mind, love is forever, but soon you’ll have to let go of him since you two are no longer together.”

“I know but for now I got you to worry about, so embrace me with your hot flesh.”

Mana smirks as he gave a sign for Seth to go inside him. By now Seth knows Mana really well and understands him that the other bandmates and fans don’t know about.

Seth opens the small desk next to the bed and pulls out the lube and applies himself to his length. Since they alreadly did it, Seth doesn’t need to put his fingers in his hole since it shouldn’t hurt as much. Mana kneels down on his bed, having his back towards Seth. He hold onto the pillows, as Seth grabs his dick and puts it inside Mana’s ass. And a cry came out from Mana. Then Seth began thrusting of the flow from within inside and out.

“Seth . . . Seth . . .” As he gives a slutty moan. They were now linked with eachother. Both off into their ownn world. Everything being blocked out from them. Only the vision of themselves emracing their bodies.

“Mana . . . oh Mana . . . oh god yes . . .” Seth cries out as the pressure becomes heavy on his dick as it was getting intense for him.

In passing time, Seth moved faster grabbing Mana’s member along with his thrusting. For each both of them both giving ino their erections as they could feel themselves break into white vision.

“Ahhhhh!! Seth . . . I feel your . . . so close . . .”

“Me too . . . I’m coming. . .”

As Seth continued to thrust, they soon reached the melting point, they broke into climax as Seth made Mana spill his juices all over the bed. And the cap closed between them, as they’re eyes fade away, making them scream out eachother’s name and as they hold on to eachother for their final cry.

Heavy breaths and pants were in the room as they lyed in bed together knowing that their gonna be tried for their concert tomorrow but they didn’t care. The only thing that matter was eachother. Until this moment, Mana will soon to love Seth more. The way Seth moved took the pain away from his heart because he was gengtle like a dove’s wings.

“I love you Mana.”

“Seth-Kun, I do as well.”

And their eyes met again as they gave one last kiss to end this night. Seth turn off the light, making everything dark in their room.

Humor Drawing

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 03:51:48 GMT

Well my friend thought I should draw Gackt saying to Hyde "I Wanna Make You Horny" so I did. And this was the result. :P

Note: Edit in photoshop.

Gackt and Hyde Fan Video

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 21:11:07 GMT

When I say this video, I was like wow. It's so beautiful and moving. Well you got two of the hottest people around, the video is in black & white(which makes more prettier), and scenes from an amazing movie, and plus the song is prettier. So all together makes a great fan-video.

Never Go On A Ride With Gackt!!!

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 04:16:06 GMT

And this the result you will get. A pissed off old man. Wow this just shows, never take Gackt to Six Flags or The Great Escape. Their goes your money. Because all the rides he'll be like: *yawn*. Man if I ever had someone like that, I'd be so pissed off. But this was funny to me. He's so fucking stubborn, he didn't want his make up to get messed up. He's such a girl.

Cuttest Moment Ever!!

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 18:59:39 GMT

When I saw this, it made me smile. I nearly wanted it as a music box because it was so freaking adorable. Juka and Hizaki are so cute together. I also like Juka and Kaya together. Me and my fan-girly mind.

Gackt Survey

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 23:46:32 GMT

I got this from jishcreator but I added some of my own stuff to make more random and more like me.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF GACKT. . .

Commited suicide?: I'd be shock and probably sad but I wouldn't cry though.

Kissed you?: I would be lost of words but I bet his breath stinks from the cigs. Yuck!>_<

Lived next door to you?: I'd freak out. I'd watching him 24/7.

Started smoking?: He's already smoking and it's fucking disgusting.

Stole something?: I bet he stole thongs. I could see him stealing that stuff.

Was hospitalized?: If he was right now I'd probably be worried for him even though he's a celebrity because he is one of my heros.

Was embarrassed of you and looked at you weird?: I'd walk away slowly.

Ran away from home?: He's a grown man. But I'm sure he has when he was little.

Got into a fight and you were there?: I'd walk away from it because it's none of my business.

Showed you his crotch?: O_O Yea I think I'd faint.

Made out with a Jrocker right in front you?: If he made out with Hyde I'd go crazy. Two of the world's hottest men making out right in front me would make my life. But thats when I will encourage for them to have sex. *smirk*

Called you on your birthday to wish a happy birthday?: Then that would complete my day. Just hearing his voice is my birthday present.

Saw you stole something from him?: I'd put it back because he'd probably kill me, his body guards look freakin scary.

Was your teacher?: Fuck the subject, I'd be too busy drooling over him.

Asked you to marry him?: Uhhh yea I'm not that crazy. (or am I). But stupid as I am I'd probably say yes because it's Gackt!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT GACKT'S . . .

Personality: He's just crazy and a dork buts thats why he is sexy.

Eye: I like it when he has blue contacts on, it looks good on him.

Face: His face is too perfect. *plastic surgery much* >_<

Hair: He has so many hair styles it's hard to keep up. But my favorite is his cloud hair version.

Clothes: Kinda weird. But still thats what fashion is.

Body: He is such a tease when it comes to posing nude. But he has the hottest chest in the world.

MORE RANDOM QUESTIONS

Are you and Gackt friends?: Sadly no. :( But I wish though.

When and how did you meet Gackt?: I never met Gackt. >_< But I want to so bad.

How has Gackt affected you?: I think w/o Gackt I wouldn't be as much of a fan-girl because he was probably the first artist I got into and I wouldn't got into Jrock.

What do you think of Gackt?: He is the sex. ^_~

What's the fondest memory you have of Gackt?: I'm not part of his life so I have none.

Do you think you will be friends or enemies with Gackt?: I'm not friends with him and If we do become enemies I'd still would think he is hot. *smirk*

Do you love Gackt?: I'm not in love with Gackt. But If I did I'd be one messed up fan-girl because he just a celeb.

Has Gackt ever hurt you?: Nope. How can he hurt me when he is such a dork to make me smile.

Would you hug Gackt?: Yes I would.

Would you kiss Gackt?: I'd still kiss him even though his breath smells like cigs because he is hot.

Are you and Gackt close?: I wish we were.

Emotionally, what stands out about Gackt?: All his love songs crap.

Do you wish Gackt was cooler?: Nope. I like him just the way he is.

On a scale of 1-10, how attractive is Gackt?: Fuck the 10, he's like 10,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000. He's so attractive he doesn't even need a scale. He's too cool for a scale.

Give Gackt a nickname and explain why you picked it. "Dorkt" because I read it on someone's doujinshi and that name suits Gackt so well.

Is Gackt loveable?: If Gackt wasn't loveable he wouldn't be as famous so thank you fan-girls for making him stand out.

Describe Gackt in one word: hot slut. Opps thats two. Oh well.

What was your first impression of Gackt?: At first I thought he looked weird but once I got into him, I started to think okay maybe this guy isn't so bad.

Do you still think that way about Gackt now?: I always think Gackt is weird. I mean come on the guy wears thongs.

What do you think Gackt weakness is?: Sex. Im sure thats why he wrote "Vanilla" because he just loves sex.

What about Gackt makes you happy?: His smile. :D

What about Gackt makes you sad?: That he never come to NY. :(

What reminds you of Gackt?: Thongs!

What's something you would change about Gackt?: His singing a bit. It's too girly.

How well do you know Gackt?: Well I know him more then any other celeb thats for sure. And thats only from what I read.

Ever wanted to tell Gackt something but couldn't?: Gackt I love you. lol Idk what I would say to the man.

Friends

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 16:28:19 GMT

Okay I decide not to delete myspace but I'm no longer at deviant art so I hope that I will meet new people here in livejournal. If not thats okay, but still I'm gonna stick around. If I get bored of livejournal then I'm deleting my account. I'll post more of my work from time to time or just post some random stuff happening in my life.

For example my sister is getting married and it seems that it's gonna be a fun wedding. But I'm not liking the dress though. It's pink. And I don't like pink. Other then that it's gonna be fun.

So yea. I would like to talk to new people and have the same interests as I am. ^^

Wallpapers I Made

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 02:37:46 GMT

These are the wallpapers I made so far. Feel free to take theme.

Juka Wallpaper

Hyde Wallpaper

Gackt Wallpaper

Klaha Wallpaper

Gackt & Hyde Vamps Wallpaper

Mana Sama Wallpaper

Gackt & You-Kun Wallpaper

Gackt Wallpaper 2

Sadie Wallpaper

L'Arc~En~Ciel Wallpaper

My Drawings

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 01:47:09 GMT

These are only some of my drawings that I like the best. ^^
I'll post more when I get the chance.

Sully From Godsmack

Hyde Shirt Tease

Klaha Bleeds From a Rose

Klaha Comforts Mana

Hyde Smiles

Gackt And Hyde Cigs

Gackt Cries

Pretty Gackt

Me And Gackt