I finally get a feel of what the fuck LOVE is.

and it doesn't feel very different from what i imagined.

so just fuck it.

fuck it.

fuck it.

fuck it.

live with it.
love it.

Okay. I will be taking a rest for a day from work.
I've decided..
Phone on silent mode.
But what shall I do?
Most probably I will end up crying in my bedroom alone.
Brandon ask me to watch Harry Potter dvd, read my vampire book...spend time alone and not hang out with my brother or my friends.

Oh.and I better buy a new broom because I broke Quiznos broom.
LMAO.

Work sucks.
Life sucks.
My existence sucks even more.

I'm depressed.
I need help.
I need to go for..euthanasia.
LOL.

( there is such a thing as too much plaid. )

Hella spoilers for chapter 39.... obviously.

I had a breakdown yesterday.
I felt too depressed to do anything but hiding under my cover and cry.

I cried....all night....my eyes are swollen now.

About what?
Well, I just feel sad and useless like I'm not worth to be in this fucking world.
And its this feeling that no matter what I do and where I go to, it will be the same.
Because it's just because of my fucking self.
I'm simply hopeless and insecure about everything in life.

Life is sad and it will still be....
I just have to learn how to feel numb about it I guess?

Many just won't understand...
so it's pointless for me to explain....

Anyway, the model I posted in my previous entry,
she was found dead in her bathroom a couple of days ago.
She..hanged herself I guess?

One day maybe u will find me dead in the bathroom too.

Sigh.

RIP Daul Kim.

You MUST watch this first, otherwise it wont make sense. But it is NSFW.




MAXIMIZE THE WINDOW

And then click this.

my friend white Jess was talking to me and we were all reminising and shit.
Jess: "I was thinking about Vee the other day?"
Fetus: "why?"
Jess: "We almost joined a cult when we were thirteen."
Fetus: "yeah. turns out he left the cult, dumped me and started dressing his sister up like anime characters and fucks her now."
Jess: "We dodged that bullet"
Fetus: "fuck yeah we did"


Also I really need to stop hallucinating spiders. my irrational fear cannot handle this.

Oh, and- expect black butler macros of the extra episode. EXPECT THEM AND EXPECT CURRY.

I occasionally wonder how everything you want to say seems be written in the lyrics of a really good song.




Listen to Konstantine by Something Corporate

You can insult my writing. You can insult my sense of humor. You can insult my looks. You can insult my flawed and irrational behavior and personality.

But, there is line behind which I will seethe and shake with rage. The line is where someone wants to take a low blow to my arguements and say "you don't know. you are young and niave and foolish. my pain. blah blah blah that issue can't be joked about"

When I correct them, I want respect. I am not niave. And when they insult based on the fact I was abused? Don't even go there. That is point in which you envoke my rage.

( a monuement of stupidity that was most rightfully earned )
Thankyou everyone for your support. It really helps <3

I had too much fun making this so it's getting posted like, everywhere. Also this contains jokes and humor of a somewhat sexual nature.


( it is not advised to use hard liquor with this game. You do not have Sebastian's magical sue powers, and you will die. )

Haha, she is awesome.

So today I was talking to a group of HP fans and well,

we were all planning to go to the big New Moon premeire in our Hogwarts regalia, and proceed to be epic nerds but hey, atleast we're there for lulz.


Also we all had amazing conversations about Harry Potter and all agreed- move fans can GTFO, and read a damn book. Also that way more people are fans than just the ones who admit it.

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Hey you! Why are you doing that!

Don't answer. Don't feed the trolls.

Clementine! Clementine! Clementine! Clementine! Clementine!

Thats it, I'm going over there.

Could you stop yelling my name like we're in a bad porno? The entire room can hear you.

well.

Well what?

Only pretty girls are allowed to wear lipstick.

I will carve your face with a rusting blade until you stop looking human.

Then it's a damn good thing you're not wearing any, isn't?

Bonjour world...
Its another brand new day...
I showered,drank blood...
and guess what?

Im feeling lethargic already.

arghhhhh...

bye.im going off to work.

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Well, I'd like the talent to pick up new skills and abilities on que. As in, I could theoretically learn any skill I wanted to and be really good at it.

No, I am not exploiting loopholes. I am simply good at evading them.